I need blank pages to write down a new chapter in my life. Where I can renew my soul, be more proactive and most of all PRIORITIZE.
I was sad waking up this morning for I allowed once more to get myself hurt and emotionally broke down. My family have never been perfect but they are my family I am proud to have. No one have the right to disect and disrespect my heritage. I was sad that I did not managed to stop the interrogation.
Lesson learned and in a way it gave more meaning for me to embraced and be respectful to others. Moreover to be more tolerant and accept anyone for what they are. Their history and past can be hard and painful but it does not make them less of a person. In fact they are larger than life for they have survived and if they share that to us, that is in itself a priveledge.
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Friday, December 30, 2011
REFLECTIONS 2011
Wow!!! another year will soon be gone. As I am flying back home on my last day of the year on the friendly sky and wishing all a Happy New Year I smiled with so many things on my mind! I gave Valerie Paschall a hug who was in a hurry to catch her flight home to Florida. I wish my Captain and my First Officer (Byron Gale & Aaron Williams) the best for the coming year. As I drove home on the Atlanta rush hour traffic, I thought of our family (Jr, Vlad, Victor, Mark and Beejay) . How I never stop missing them despite the fact they are already living a life and building their own destiny with their own family. How I miss my childhood girlfriend IAN and contemplated on my own childhood. My favorite cousin Glo Start first came to my mind. Like anything that happen to us in the world our parents will never leave us..... I felt my Mom and my Dad and never believe they were gone a long long time ago. For I am living the way they thought me how to live. I grew up feeling alone but then I remember a man named Calie who is more than a brother that took the responsibilities of our entire existence. I thought I got a younger sister then but for some unknown reason she disappeared and to this day I never understand if she is real or just one of my imaginary relative that I learned to play with as I lived a life of an only child with no family around.
Ahhhh!!!! why the ending of every year we tend to reflect a lot. For me the most important accomplishment I did this year is living a simple life and enjoying the limited time on hand to be with JD and Einstein. The opportunity to be able to see Mark and Victor and their families in Los Angeles. Added to that gift is seeing Camille Ferrer (the first born child) of my friend Tania. I was fortunate to spent time with old friends and new friends alike. I was able to know the meaning of true friendship as well by getting hurt and getting over it. I learned forgiveness is letting it go .
My self adoptive parents (Mom Cherry and Dad Ron) are a constant reminder to me of what LOVE can do even in the most challenging situations. My sisters (Kathy, Amy, Beth), although time is not cooperating with us, we managed to pick up where we left out every opportunity we can be together. Our Dad Bob Daniels is a gift from above. He is a source of strenght and positiveness. There is no bad bone in his entirety. Sometimes I wonder how he can be so positive , thoughful, loving and caring at age 93 ! He still sends us cards and gifts on every single occassions.
Our extended family in Colorado (the Fesenmeyers and our friends : Emily from Singapore and England is such a blessing to have, Tessie from Bangkok whose wisdom so early in life is magical, Vicky from Hongkong whose love is express in her own unique ways, Cris my soul mate from a distance and those that I remember every now and then because they occupy a portion of my heart.
Our families from Dallas, New York, Los Angeles, Chicago, Tennessee not to mention my best friend from New Zealand and Australia. All in all 2011 accorded me a life of reflections, a life of possibilities, a life of not being selfish and at the same time I was living a life where I am contented just being home with JD and Einstein. They told me age does that to anyone but I think being aware of how precious time and moments are make us appreciate that limited time accorded to all of us!!
REFLECT and make use of the gift of time to the fullest !!!!
Ahhhh!!!! why the ending of every year we tend to reflect a lot. For me the most important accomplishment I did this year is living a simple life and enjoying the limited time on hand to be with JD and Einstein. The opportunity to be able to see Mark and Victor and their families in Los Angeles. Added to that gift is seeing Camille Ferrer (the first born child) of my friend Tania. I was fortunate to spent time with old friends and new friends alike. I was able to know the meaning of true friendship as well by getting hurt and getting over it. I learned forgiveness is letting it go .
My self adoptive parents (Mom Cherry and Dad Ron) are a constant reminder to me of what LOVE can do even in the most challenging situations. My sisters (Kathy, Amy, Beth), although time is not cooperating with us, we managed to pick up where we left out every opportunity we can be together. Our Dad Bob Daniels is a gift from above. He is a source of strenght and positiveness. There is no bad bone in his entirety. Sometimes I wonder how he can be so positive , thoughful, loving and caring at age 93 ! He still sends us cards and gifts on every single occassions.
Our extended family in Colorado (the Fesenmeyers and our friends : Emily from Singapore and England is such a blessing to have, Tessie from Bangkok whose wisdom so early in life is magical, Vicky from Hongkong whose love is express in her own unique ways, Cris my soul mate from a distance and those that I remember every now and then because they occupy a portion of my heart.
Our families from Dallas, New York, Los Angeles, Chicago, Tennessee not to mention my best friend from New Zealand and Australia. All in all 2011 accorded me a life of reflections, a life of possibilities, a life of not being selfish and at the same time I was living a life where I am contented just being home with JD and Einstein. They told me age does that to anyone but I think being aware of how precious time and moments are make us appreciate that limited time accorded to all of us!!
REFLECT and make use of the gift of time to the fullest !!!!
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